June 24th of Tenderness
A tender vulnerable day today
I would love to share out loud how I’m feeling.
My healing journey with acute leukemia, which began September last, was and has been so deeply interwoven with my Venus unfoldment and my life with the Gene Keys overall, that it feels unreal sometimes. It’s almost like I have been, and still am, living out a fairy tale every day, with its magical symbolism and synchronicities like red threads unwinding the story.
Like when I had to be moved to the FOURTH floor, to the HEART ward of the hospital, on what was supposed to be my fifth and last day of my fourth and last chemotherapy. I was to be administered my two very last bags of medicine, bags 52 and 53, but my heart was beating so slowly, that it had to be monitored before and whilst they gave me those two last bags. There I stayed for 3 and a half days.
Today, a Day of Teardrops 💧
Sitting
My face wet from tears
Only a few minutes ago I was outside
Hanging my knickers on a clothesline
With a smile on my heart
The songs of the birds
And the sounds of leaves
Rustling in the wind
Were so harmonious
But now
Only a few minutes later
I’m sitting
My face wet from tears
My body aches
All the time
It’s hard
And I just want to escape into the arms of my Radiance
My sphere of Sanctity
Sixty-one
Dot six
Stay there forever
Not having to deal with the other world
The outer world
Can I?
Please?
I close my eyes and send a Thank You
To all my healing beings
The healers from the heart of the glacier
Mother Mary
Christ
My darling angels with their healing golden hands
Who stood by me every second of every day
All the time at the hospital
Oh my God!
It was so difficult sometimes
Thank you
I couldn’t have done it without you
And now, still I need you
I know you’re here
Every time I think of you
You’re here, by my side
In a second
Every time
I know
I thank you so deeply for that
I couldn’t do all this without you
Thank you
Thank you
🙏🏻
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The Photo of the beautiful strong rose, with its tender color is by Masaaki Komori on Unsplash
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