There is magic in in the air today. It's the 29th of February. Leap Day. Day out of time.
I don't know exactly how to put it into words, but there's magic palpable.
Sara came to me last night. Woke me up, scratching on the door like she used to, when she had to go out in the middle of the night. But this time it was so loud. She used to do it very gently. But this time it was more like she was scratching the door from the outside, wanting to come in. I think she was "waking me up", breaking the spell.
I haven't written anything here since before noon, October 6th 2022 the day she died. Little did I know that later in the afternoon she would be going Home. To her other home. I almost can't believe I took a screenshot that day, at 11:11. My screen showing her amazing beauty and presence. My guardian angel. This screen has been kissed so often, again and again, and especially when I was laying at the hospital during my chemo+recovery rounds, missing her terribly. Having her close to me as my screensaver, showing herself everytime I lifted the phone, was a deep pain relief. A true Soul balm.
My beautiful Sara. My fluffymonster. Oh God I can't write more. It's too emotional still. I was going to write this and post before the end of the day, as I know its a golden hoop day, and she came to help me break the spell, so I want to honor that by posting before the day is over. She came to help me Leap into the sacred. Now. Embrace and celebrate SACRED SPACE. And to remind me that I AM sacred space. Now she and our love for each other is part of that sacred space and it infuses it with her amazing wild spirit, joy and authenticity. She was unaploagetically Sara. Always. All the way. She was a force of nature. Still is.
It's almost midnight.
I love you Sara mín. Always.
Þín, Sóley mamma. 💖💖💖💖
